Sick of been sick

I am so sick of this life of mine . I can't even have one day with no pain , i am sick of the lies and i just want to crawl in a hole and never come out . My pain is getting worse and pain meds don't help at all and i just don't know what to do.

I am sick of people treaten me like shit and of people treaten me like i am crazy. i am not crazy i live in Hell . People are like will it can't be that bad . shit no one gets it or even trys to i wish some of these people would try to live in my world for one day ..

They would not be able to do it .. i can't do anying any more i can hardly walk , i can't get out of my own bed and i need help just to put on my socks.. i can't even rember the last time i did not have pain .

well i am going to be i hurt to much . here is a video i made

Going for yet another scan :S

Well i got a call from the doctors office on thrusday and they told me that my health incesurence finally said ok to the HIDA Scan. I have never even hear of this thing before so i go on wesday its at 8:00am so we have to leave the house around 6:30 or 7:00am .. I am not looken forward to getten up that early .

I have been haven alot of problems with my tummy and i see Dr, Saba my pcp on the 13th of this month for all the info on the scan's and test that we has been orderen on me . I never wish for anything bad but i just hope that they find something to tell me why i am in so much pain.

I have been sleepen alot and stuff and i have no erengy and i plane hurt . so here is some info on the HDIA SCAN and what i can and can't do !


HIDA Scan

HIDA With Ejection Fraction (EF)
Do not have anything to eat or drink for 4 hours prior to this test. Do not take any narcotic anagesics (pain medication) for 4 hours prior to this procedure. Do not have a barium or CT contrast procedures for 24 hours before this exam.

for info please go to this link !!!
http://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/gallbladder-scan